[ Oh, thank the Founder, he's here. Joshua lets out a soft breath as the door opens, and despite it all, he allows himself a fond smile upon seeing Luca. Particularly so... casual, so relaxed in dress. He can say much the same for himself, though. It's less intimidating when you're dressed as though you're going to spend the evening going through tomes.
Or... something more exciting to anyone that isn't him, at any rate. ]
Thank you.
[ And he does come in, nodding slightly as he enters Luca's private space. It's... messy, certainly, but no worse off than his own house. Joshua won't fault him for it. ]
[Luca's feathers ruffle faintly. He knows Joshua doesn't mean anything by it — he's probably being painfully honest right now. But Beasts if it doesn't make him feel abruptly self-conscious about the current state of his everything.]
It's - ah. If I knew I was going to have company I would have -
[He quickly shakes his head and goes to settle at the edge of the bed. He leaves plenty of room for Joshua to sit beside him, close or as far away as he might like.]
Are you.... alright? Nothing's wrong, yes? You just... came to visit?
[To talk about the thing he's been both dreading and looking forward to? Just thinking about it makes his heart ratchet up a little higher.]
Oh, no. Please. Do not feel as though you must clean on my account. You have seen my home in a very similar state, after all, and it is... nice, seeing it this way.
[ More human, less staged. He appreciates it.
But Luca sits, and Joshua follows suit. Though his purpose for being here could call for a much closer position, he kindly leaves a respectful space between the two of them. He wants to make sure that this goes smoothly, after all, and they have a serious discussion ahead of them. ]
Nothing is wrong, no. I simply thought... that perhaps we might talk? Though if you need more time, it can certainly be nothing more than a visit. I would be pleased either way.
[Luca only huffs in response to the first statement. He won't argue it, but it doesn't necessarily mean his embarrassment has abated. They just have far more important things to discuss.
Admittedly, he hates the distance between them. Necessary or not, it feels like a far cry from the gentle peace they had carved out for one another just a few nights prior.]
No, no. I - [He shakes his head.] I do not know if I am ready. But I also do not think I will ever be more ready than I am.
[ Joshua exhales softly, not quite a sigh of relief but close. It's a good thing, that they're both taking this so seriously. He nods, clasping his hands at his knees and focusing his eyes on them. ]
It is, indeed.
[ He takes a deep, steadying breath.]
I do know that I have feelings for you. I cannot deny this. Admittedly, my largest source of trepidation is rooted in what happened to Dion. The way that the Forest attacked him so brutally in retaliation for discovering the library. I worry... that you would also become a target.
[Well. There's certainly no dancing around something like that. Joshua announces it plain as day, no room for denial. It should make Luca's pulse sing. Instead, something cold wraps around his heart, and it makes his next breath all the harder to take.
Those concerns are worthwhile ones indeed.]
I... feel the same. About you, I mean. [Might as well get that much out there.] And in many ways, I am worried about what could become of you, being tied to me.
[But it's different. Luca is afraid of what his own involvement might mean. His last two relationships had ended in nothing short of a disaster. He isn't convinced this world won't take Joshua away too. And if it did? What would become of all of Luca's hard won progress.
(To say nothing of the conflict in his relationship with Zahliya, or the fact that he had been utterly head over heels for Joshua's own brother).
There are... far too many things to focus in on. For now, though, he tries to settle in on putting Joshua's concerns at ease. In a manner of speaking, at least.]
Knowing the Forest, it is already well aware of what is between us. And it's never once cared to discriminate between romantic and companionable love. We have made no secret of our friendship, up until now. And if I have no intention of letting you go as a friend, what does it matter if we take the next step?
[Granted, Luca's tone sounds unsure, to put it mildly. There's still so much that he has to worry about, after all.]
[ Luca makes a good point. It's highly likely that the Forest already knows. He preys on their weaknesses, and any positive connections could be used against them. What they have now is really no different than if they did take the next step, at least in terms of his fears.
Joshua presses his lips together, tipping his head down thoughtfully. ]
What does it matter, indeed.
[ He can't ignore the tone in Luca's voice, but the revelation makes his chest... lighter, in a way. It isn't a complete alleviation of his concerns, or course, but it's a start.
Speaking of his other concerns, though... ]
... and what of Clive? If he were to return? I would not want to stand between your happiness.
He's known the question was coming for some time. Really, this is only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to Clive. If anything, it's a sharp reminder for Luca to mention his own fears. But for now, they're swallowed down yet again — yet again in favor of continuing to soothe Joshua's own fears.]
There... was a time where I humored the idea of chasing both of you. [Things like this were not so uncommon in Renova. And it wasn't as if Luca balked at the idea of Joshua sharing his time. He's well aware of the moments shared between the other man and Ezell. It only bolsters the affection welling up within his chest.] But I suppose it would depend on how the both of you felt.
[Fretfully, his fingers thread together.]
... More than anything I am worried what he would think of me. What you both might think of me. Is it not wrong to chase after someone's sibling after declaring my love for him?
[Luca closes his eyes. Some part of him, the rational, gentle part, wants to say that it isn't. Not when it comes to Clive, who loved his brother more than anything. The real Clive, not the semblance Luca uses to torment himself, would probably be amused at the outcome.
But he can't be sure. And until Joshua speaks, that doubt dangles over Luca's head like a blade.]
[ Chasing... both of them? Somehow, despite knowing full well of the ability to love more than one person at a time, the thought had never occurred to Joshua. He pauses, lifting his head and turning to look at Luca. ]
I do not think it is wrong, no. Not common, but certainly not wrong. And while I cannot speak for Clive, I know my brother's heart well enough to feel like he would at least be open to discussion.
[ If he even returns to this place. The longer they are distanced from his disappearance, the less Joshua believes his brother will come back. ]
The heart loves who it loves. And if you love the both of us... Then you are just subject to the Rosfields two times over.
[ He smiles, nudging Luca's foot with his own in an affectionate gesture. ]
[ ... ah. That's quite the admission, and for a moment, Joshua finds himself genuinely surprised. He hadn't anticipated Luca doing something like this.
But does it change his view of the other man? Not a bit. ]
I do not think there is such a thing, Luca.
[ This time, rather than reaching out with his foot for a nudge, he reaches out with his hand, scooting just a little closer and seeking out Luca's. A comforting gesture. ]
[Luca's hand inches toward Joshua's, but ultimately stops short at first. He glances between their separate fingers, before ultimately deciding to take the plunge. He twines his fingers around the other man's, wincing even as he does.]
I went into the Forest, intending to burn the bastard out myself. Zahliya tried to stop me. I - accused him of not supporting me as Clive had. For not caring about freeing me from the Phoenix.
I said as much about Kiera, too.
[He hangs his head.]
When I woke up after everything, I had so much more clarity, given all that I remembered. And I felt like such a fool, because it was clear that Kiera, at least had cared. and it stood to reason that Zahliya did too.
Unfortunately, the damage was done and...
[He trails off.]
I... am not a good man. I try to be. Maybe I once was. But I do not think, no matter how much I have improved of late, that I am a good person. I was not before, and I certainly am not after all of that.
[ Luca's fingers twining with his own makes Joshua's smile return, soft as it may be. He gives those fingers a slight squeeze, gentle and reassuring.
And oh, Luca. Joshua can picture it so vividly because he's seen it. Not in Luca personally, but in others. In himself, in how he had wanted to do the same when the Forest made him kill his own brother. ]
I think that you are.
Everyone grieves differently. That yours took the form of anger does not mean that you are a bad person. It simply means that you are human, and in a great deal of pain.
[ He rubs Luca's hand with his thumb, slow and repetitive movements. ]
Even so, we must acknowledge when we have made a mistake, and it sounds as though you have. Unfortunately, we are not in control of how others choose to feel. I do not know Zahliya well, but it may be that he just needs more time than most to come to forgiveness.
The most important thing is that we learn from our past mistakes, and move forward with the intention of doing better. That is indicative of a good person. And you are doing that, yes?
[Luca, of course, has his doubts. But Joshua explains his logic so well, and so patiently, that his heart cannot help but seize. Framed that way, he doubts his own doubts in some capacity, almost finding himself foolish for bringing it up in the first place.
To say nothing of the relief felt over the fact that Joshua does not pull away.]
I am. Still... [He lays his free hand over Joshua's, sandwiching it between both now.]
I worry. Part of me still hopes to put things right between him and I. That part of me wonders if it is wrong to attempt to do anything else. The other... [How does he put this...] It feels like speaking with Zahliya in any capacity is like running up against a wall. And maybe it is not helpful for either of us for me to continue holding out hope. But then...
[Luca laughs, but it's a thick sounding noise.]
Is it really fair for me to commit myself to you, when my heart still aches for another?
[ As Luca speaks, Joshua listens intently. It would be unacceptable to do anything less. And as Luca's pain and conflict unfurls like a map on a table, he follows its paths easily. ]
I wish that I had a better answer for you, but... I fear that is a question that you must answer yourself.
[ It pains him to say it. But he can't answer this for Luca. And that's the whole reason they're having this talk, isn't it? ]
If you need time to come to that answer, know that I will gladly give it. You need not rush to find your answer, and I will not remove myself from your life while you do, either. If nothing else, I am here to support you as you heal.
I appreciate that. More than I could ever put into words.
[Despite his hesitation, though, Luca finds himself shifting closer. His head settles against Joshua's shoulder, while those hands cling to Joshua's own like a lifeline.]
Another thought comes to mind. [He thumbs over the back of Joshua's hand.] It felt like I wasted so much time with Clive. I... never had the opportunity to - to say what I really wanted.
I cannot help but wonder that if I do not take my chance now -
[ It's good that Luca doesn't shy away from touch. In fact, it's quite promising that he leans in to rest against Joshua's shoulder. It indicates that what he's said may have had some impact, and that's the most that he can hope for. ]
No, not at all. It is not a burden. Not when it is you.
[ His smile is as gentle and fond as his touch. ]
Follow your heart. You will know what to do. In the meantime, I am here for you in whatever way you want me.
[Luca is silent for a long moment, almost as if content to leave things as they are. Almost. Eventually, though, he shifts enough to peer up at Joshua, studying the planes of his face quietly. He thinks of how it felt to lay in his arms, how safe he had felt in those moments.
And ultimately, he recalls his own words. Even if they did not put a label on it, the wheel was already in motion. He already felt something for Joshua, something that could not be pulled back. So really, what was the point in being so delicate?]
And if I want to throw caution to the wind, and let things fall as they may?
[ And for that long moment, Joshua is content to sit, still and warm and supporting Luca in his lean. However long he needs to sit like this, Joshua will let him.
Even as Luca turns to study him. A faint pink warmth touches Joshua's ears, but he smiles softly, warmly. And the words that follow are only somewhat surprising in that he seems to not need the time after all. ]
Then, if that is what your heart tells you, we can follow that path and see where it takes us.
[Considering all they had discussed, Joshua's answer is far from surprising. Nevertheless, Luca finds himself relieved all the same. Tentatively, he extends his hand, gingerly caressing the side of Joshua's face. Within his chest, his heart begins to thunder unevenly.
It doesn't feel real.]
So long as I walk it with you, I will be happy. [The smile that forms on his lips is a wobbly one, but only out of embarrassment. He dips his head quickly, huffing once.]
[ Luca's hand touches the side of his face, and Joshua feels his own heart begin to pound. It has been... a while, since he felt something like this. For a while, he wasn't sure that he ever would again. But now...
He exhales softly, lifting a hand to press against the back of Luca's. And though Luca dips his head, Joshua doesn't stop looking away. ]
It would be an honor to court you, if you would have me.
[It's so... formal, every bit what Luca could have wanted both now and back when he was just shy of a man. More than that, it feels right, any of his earlier vestiges of guilt ebbing away as he leans his head into those fingers. He chances lifting his eyes, meeting Joshua's gaze for the span of a heartbeat, before looking away again.]
As if I could dream of saying no to you. [He huffs once, just shy of a laugh.] You have had my heart for long before this.
[ Though Joshua knows it, his heart still flutters wildly at the words. That Luca has loved him in this capacity for so long... His thumb strokes Luca's cheek, and while Luca's glance is shy and fleeting, Joshua's eyes don't seem to be able to look away. ]
And to think I knew not what I had. But I shall do my best to remedy that.
[ Humming softly, thoughtfully, he considers his options from here. He wants nothing more than to remain gentlemanly and polite, because it is what Luca deserves. A part of him also wants to lean in, to capture Luca's lips with his own, but not yet. He must not rush it.
Even so, he doesn't hesitate to plant a gentle kiss against Luca's forehead. ]
Thank you. For giving me this chance. For believing in me and keeping me going all these months.
It was not as if I was willing to admit it. Not even to myself.
[After all, he had been convinced that this was a grievous failing on his part, a betrayal of someone he cared deeply for. With Joshua putting those doubts at ease, it had been easier to speak them forth. That, and his constant presence overall.
Luca does shiver faintly as that kiss is pressed to his forehead. Though some part of him does yearn for a true kiss, a sinister part of his mind pointing out that hesitation is what left things so unresolved with Clive, he bites back the urge. He can be content with this. He will be.]
I would have done that, no matter what. First and foremost, you are my dearest friend, Joshua Rosfield. I know how it feels, to be brought so low by circumstance. I could not let you flounder as I did.
[ He thought Luca might say something like that. Joshua lets out a soft laugh against his hair, closing his eyes and gently pressing his nose into the strands. ]
I know. And I appreciate it so very much.
[ He lingers there, just for a moment, then pulls back to look into Luca's eyes. His smile is warm and fond, and his thumb resumes stroking the skin of his cheek. It doesn't quite feel real yet. Like a dream he'll wake from any moment. ]
I am glad to know a soul as kind as yours. It only makes you even more beautiful.
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Date: 2025-10-27 04:14 am (UTC)Or... something more exciting to anyone that isn't him, at any rate. ]
Thank you.
[ And he does come in, nodding slightly as he enters Luca's private space. It's... messy, certainly, but no worse off than his own house. Joshua won't fault him for it. ]
It seems very cozy.
[ The Phoenix part of him certainly approves. ]
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Date: 2025-10-27 04:21 am (UTC)It's - ah. If I knew I was going to have company I would have -
[He quickly shakes his head and goes to settle at the edge of the bed. He leaves plenty of room for Joshua to sit beside him, close or as far away as he might like.]
Are you.... alright? Nothing's wrong, yes? You just... came to visit?
[To talk about the thing he's been both dreading and looking forward to? Just thinking about it makes his heart ratchet up a little higher.]
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Date: 2025-10-27 04:27 am (UTC)[ More human, less staged. He appreciates it.
But Luca sits, and Joshua follows suit. Though his purpose for being here could call for a much closer position, he kindly leaves a respectful space between the two of them. He wants to make sure that this goes smoothly, after all, and they have a serious discussion ahead of them. ]
Nothing is wrong, no. I simply thought... that perhaps we might talk? Though if you need more time, it can certainly be nothing more than a visit. I would be pleased either way.
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Date: 2025-10-27 05:00 am (UTC)Admittedly, he hates the distance between them. Necessary or not, it feels like a far cry from the gentle peace they had carved out for one another just a few nights prior.]
No, no. I - [He shakes his head.] I do not know if I am ready. But I also do not think I will ever be more ready than I am.
It is... a difficult topic, after all.
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Date: 2025-10-27 07:12 am (UTC)It is, indeed.
[ He takes a deep, steadying breath.]
I do know that I have feelings for you. I cannot deny this. Admittedly, my largest source of trepidation is rooted in what happened to Dion. The way that the Forest attacked him so brutally in retaliation for discovering the library. I worry... that you would also become a target.
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Date: 2025-10-27 10:45 pm (UTC)Those concerns are worthwhile ones indeed.]
I... feel the same. About you, I mean. [Might as well get that much out there.] And in many ways, I am worried about what could become of you, being tied to me.
[But it's different. Luca is afraid of what his own involvement might mean. His last two relationships had ended in nothing short of a disaster. He isn't convinced this world won't take Joshua away too. And if it did? What would become of all of Luca's hard won progress.
(To say nothing of the conflict in his relationship with Zahliya, or the fact that he had been utterly head over heels for Joshua's own brother).
There are... far too many things to focus in on. For now, though, he tries to settle in on putting Joshua's concerns at ease. In a manner of speaking, at least.]
Knowing the Forest, it is already well aware of what is between us. And it's never once cared to discriminate between romantic and companionable love. We have made no secret of our friendship, up until now. And if I have no intention of letting you go as a friend, what does it matter if we take the next step?
[Granted, Luca's tone sounds unsure, to put it mildly. There's still so much that he has to worry about, after all.]
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Date: 2025-10-28 12:14 am (UTC)Joshua presses his lips together, tipping his head down thoughtfully. ]
What does it matter, indeed.
[ He can't ignore the tone in Luca's voice, but the revelation makes his chest... lighter, in a way. It isn't a complete alleviation of his concerns, or course, but it's a start.
Speaking of his other concerns, though... ]
... and what of Clive? If he were to return? I would not want to stand between your happiness.
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Date: 2025-10-28 01:11 am (UTC)He's known the question was coming for some time. Really, this is only the tip of the iceberg when it comes to Clive. If anything, it's a sharp reminder for Luca to mention his own fears. But for now, they're swallowed down yet again — yet again in favor of continuing to soothe Joshua's own fears.]
There... was a time where I humored the idea of chasing both of you. [Things like this were not so uncommon in Renova. And it wasn't as if Luca balked at the idea of Joshua sharing his time. He's well aware of the moments shared between the other man and Ezell. It only bolsters the affection welling up within his chest.] But I suppose it would depend on how the both of you felt.
[Fretfully, his fingers thread together.]
... More than anything I am worried what he would think of me. What you both might think of me. Is it not wrong to chase after someone's sibling after declaring my love for him?
[Luca closes his eyes. Some part of him, the rational, gentle part, wants to say that it isn't. Not when it comes to Clive, who loved his brother more than anything. The real Clive, not the semblance Luca uses to torment himself, would probably be amused at the outcome.
But he can't be sure. And until Joshua speaks, that doubt dangles over Luca's head like a blade.]
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Date: 2025-10-28 01:57 am (UTC)I do not think it is wrong, no. Not common, but certainly not wrong. And while I cannot speak for Clive, I know my brother's heart well enough to feel like he would at least be open to discussion.
[ If he even returns to this place. The longer they are distanced from his disappearance, the less Joshua believes his brother will come back. ]
The heart loves who it loves. And if you love the both of us... Then you are just subject to the Rosfields two times over.
[ He smiles, nudging Luca's foot with his own in an affectionate gesture. ]
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Date: 2025-10-28 02:17 am (UTC)It would not be such a terrible fate.
[It wouldn't be, not by a long shot. But still, his heart aches, and he finds his shoulders slumping as he sinks further into himself.]
When Clive left, I... did awful things. Hurt someone I cared very deeply for. I admit that I — I am worried I would not be good enough for you.
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Date: 2025-10-29 04:11 am (UTC)But does it change his view of the other man? Not a bit. ]
I do not think there is such a thing, Luca.
[ This time, rather than reaching out with his foot for a nudge, he reaches out with his hand, scooting just a little closer and seeking out Luca's. A comforting gesture. ]
Do you want to talk about it?
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Date: 2025-10-29 04:20 am (UTC)I went into the Forest, intending to burn the bastard out myself. Zahliya tried to stop me. I - accused him of not supporting me as Clive had. For not caring about freeing me from the Phoenix.
I said as much about Kiera, too.
[He hangs his head.]
When I woke up after everything, I had so much more clarity, given all that I remembered. And I felt like such a fool, because it was clear that Kiera, at least had cared. and it stood to reason that Zahliya did too.
Unfortunately, the damage was done and...
[He trails off.]
I... am not a good man. I try to be. Maybe I once was. But I do not think, no matter how much I have improved of late, that I am a good person. I was not before, and I certainly am not after all of that.
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Date: 2025-10-29 04:35 am (UTC)And oh, Luca. Joshua can picture it so vividly because he's seen it. Not in Luca personally, but in others. In himself, in how he had wanted to do the same when the Forest made him kill his own brother. ]
I think that you are.
Everyone grieves differently. That yours took the form of anger does not mean that you are a bad person. It simply means that you are human, and in a great deal of pain.
[ He rubs Luca's hand with his thumb, slow and repetitive movements. ]
Even so, we must acknowledge when we have made a mistake, and it sounds as though you have. Unfortunately, we are not in control of how others choose to feel. I do not know Zahliya well, but it may be that he just needs more time than most to come to forgiveness.
The most important thing is that we learn from our past mistakes, and move forward with the intention of doing better. That is indicative of a good person. And you are doing that, yes?
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Date: 2025-10-29 04:42 am (UTC)To say nothing of the relief felt over the fact that Joshua does not pull away.]
I am. Still... [He lays his free hand over Joshua's, sandwiching it between both now.]
I worry. Part of me still hopes to put things right between him and I. That part of me wonders if it is wrong to attempt to do anything else. The other... [How does he put this...] It feels like speaking with Zahliya in any capacity is like running up against a wall. And maybe it is not helpful for either of us for me to continue holding out hope. But then...
[Luca laughs, but it's a thick sounding noise.]
Is it really fair for me to commit myself to you, when my heart still aches for another?
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Date: 2025-10-29 04:57 am (UTC)I wish that I had a better answer for you, but... I fear that is a question that you must answer yourself.
[ It pains him to say it. But he can't answer this for Luca. And that's the whole reason they're having this talk, isn't it? ]
If you need time to come to that answer, know that I will gladly give it. You need not rush to find your answer, and I will not remove myself from your life while you do, either. If nothing else, I am here to support you as you heal.
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Date: 2025-10-29 05:03 am (UTC)[Despite his hesitation, though, Luca finds himself shifting closer. His head settles against Joshua's shoulder, while those hands cling to Joshua's own like a lifeline.]
Another thought comes to mind. [He thumbs over the back of Joshua's hand.] It felt like I wasted so much time with Clive. I... never had the opportunity to - to say what I really wanted.
I cannot help but wonder that if I do not take my chance now -
[He trails off, then shakes his head.]
I apologize for rambling so incessantly at you.
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Date: 2025-10-29 05:13 am (UTC)No, not at all. It is not a burden. Not when it is you.
[ His smile is as gentle and fond as his touch. ]
Follow your heart. You will know what to do. In the meantime, I am here for you in whatever way you want me.
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Date: 2025-10-29 05:27 am (UTC)[Luca is silent for a long moment, almost as if content to leave things as they are. Almost. Eventually, though, he shifts enough to peer up at Joshua, studying the planes of his face quietly. He thinks of how it felt to lay in his arms, how safe he had felt in those moments.
And ultimately, he recalls his own words. Even if they did not put a label on it, the wheel was already in motion. He already felt something for Joshua, something that could not be pulled back. So really, what was the point in being so delicate?]
And if I want to throw caution to the wind, and let things fall as they may?
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Date: 2025-10-29 05:38 am (UTC)Even as Luca turns to study him. A faint pink warmth touches Joshua's ears, but he smiles softly, warmly. And the words that follow are only somewhat surprising in that he seems to not need the time after all. ]
Then, if that is what your heart tells you, we can follow that path and see where it takes us.
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Date: 2025-10-29 05:49 am (UTC)It doesn't feel real.]
So long as I walk it with you, I will be happy. [The smile that forms on his lips is a wobbly one, but only out of embarrassment. He dips his head quickly, huffing once.]
Thank you, Joshua.
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Date: 2025-10-30 08:01 pm (UTC)He exhales softly, lifting a hand to press against the back of Luca's. And though Luca dips his head, Joshua doesn't stop looking away. ]
It would be an honor to court you, if you would have me.
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Date: 2025-10-31 09:07 pm (UTC)As if I could dream of saying no to you. [He huffs once, just shy of a laugh.] You have had my heart for long before this.
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Date: 2025-11-01 01:00 am (UTC)And to think I knew not what I had. But I shall do my best to remedy that.
[ Humming softly, thoughtfully, he considers his options from here. He wants nothing more than to remain gentlemanly and polite, because it is what Luca deserves. A part of him also wants to lean in, to capture Luca's lips with his own, but not yet. He must not rush it.
Even so, he doesn't hesitate to plant a gentle kiss against Luca's forehead. ]
Thank you. For giving me this chance. For believing in me and keeping me going all these months.
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Date: 2025-11-01 11:21 pm (UTC)[After all, he had been convinced that this was a grievous failing on his part, a betrayal of someone he cared deeply for. With Joshua putting those doubts at ease, it had been easier to speak them forth. That, and his constant presence overall.
Luca does shiver faintly as that kiss is pressed to his forehead. Though some part of him does yearn for a true kiss, a sinister part of his mind pointing out that hesitation is what left things so unresolved with Clive, he bites back the urge. He can be content with this. He will be.]
I would have done that, no matter what. First and foremost, you are my dearest friend, Joshua Rosfield. I know how it feels, to be brought so low by circumstance. I could not let you flounder as I did.
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Date: 2025-11-02 12:25 am (UTC)I know. And I appreciate it so very much.
[ He lingers there, just for a moment, then pulls back to look into Luca's eyes. His smile is warm and fond, and his thumb resumes stroking the skin of his cheek. It doesn't quite feel real yet. Like a dream he'll wake from any moment. ]
I am glad to know a soul as kind as yours. It only makes you even more beautiful.
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