[Yeah uh huh sounds like something somebody WITHOUT a love life would say!!! >|
Nah Luca has a rock bf he's fine-]
Starcrossed? Hardly.
[He turns his head a little, so his cheek is resting on the bar instead of his forehead.]
I...despise him. He is everything I stand against. He wants me to act in ways I know that I would regret...
[...]
But yet- [Flopping dramatically to one side] -I cannot cast him from my mind. I cannot help but to fall for him every time he opens his mouth, like a...a....seductive temptress.
[You mean the rock bf he shared a bed with once, causing said rock bf to run away because they didn't leave room for another guardian to fit between them?
Yeah, his love life is great. And he is definitely not at all bothered by the familiarity of the situation that Sesa describes.
His tone isn't exactly softer when he speaks again, but he does seem distinctly less dismissive.]
Some men are infuriatingly charming, even when you know better.
[Luca isn't a very big drinker. Nevertheless, he does find a very particular bottle of wine from the bar and pours it for himself. He doesn't drink it yet, just swirls the liquid in a clear glass.]
There was a man I met in my travels. Though he was not involved, his organization was involved in a tragedy that befell my family. Though we did not know it when we first met... [He shrugs.] Sometime later, the truth of both of our identities came out. Yet despite knowing what monstrosity he and his cohort were capable of, I continued to gravitate toward him. And he continued to encourage it.
[Finally, he takes a long pull from his glass. After he swallows, he lets out a long suffering sigh.]
He will also sit up and down another one of those shots, against his better judgement. He is going to be the most hung over of his LIFE come tomorrow morning.]
That does sound much like what I am dealing with...I just.
[He runs a hand over his face, pressing his fingers into the bridge of his nose.]
I don't know what I'm doing. I just know I am incapable of stopping as I am.
I...don't know. I do not truly believe him to be a wholly cruel person, it is just that...the things he has done are cruel, and reprehensible. I should not be willing to accept much less forgive such things, especially when they go so starkly against my own worldview, but...
[Sesa groans, slumping forward on his barstool again.]
If there is a part of you that craves the violence he brings, it probably speaks to your character as well. [A shrug.] Or, perhaps you are a hopeless optimist, hoping that you can redeem someone that far gone.
I seek revenge. [ah] Revenge...for my brother's death. And- [For some reason, he can't bring himself to say Elliot's name outright, even though everyone with eyeballs would know who he's talking about.] -the object of my desire...and my deepest affections, I believe, holds the key to obtaining it. He wants to help me.
So. You would bed the devil in the hopes of attaining your more selfish and destructive desires. [He takes another sip of his wine.] In that case, yes, there is something wrong with you. But it is not so uncommon.
Craving vengeance is — forgive the phrasing, all things considered — very human.
You have the right of it, more or less, but...it isn't even just that. I doubt I would need to bed him to attain this. My affections for him matter not in that regard...
[He stares down into the glass of half-drunk liquor in front of him.]
I should be indifferent. My goals should be all that matter to me. Yet...seeing his smile means just as much, if not more.
So in your course for vengeance, you fell in love along the away. [Is he sneering? Just a little.]
Quite the storybook romance you've pulled yourself into. Now all you need to do is convince your lover the error of his ways and skip off into the sunset.
Oh, is it? I could not tell from all the whimpering and whining.
[Sorry, Sesa.]
There is no happy ending here. There is no perfect solution. This is what happens when you seek to bloody your hands in the search for revenge. Especially when you get tied up with another person. I would know. [He shakes his head.] But even if there were an elegant solution to be found, it wouldn't be located at the bottom of a shot glass.
I've worked many bars, in many towns, in many countries. Alcohol never makes you feel less sane.
[He finishes his glass off.]
If you truly want my judgement in this matter, I'll give you this. Good people do bad things. Bad people do good things. Your attractions and your quest might indicate a certain inclination, but there is more to you than that. Certainly more than a surly bartender with his own issues would be able to diagnose.
[Sesa is silent as he listens. And eventually, he'll glance back up at Luca out of the corner of his eye.]
Well...good advice or no, I do appreciate you being willing to lend a listening ear. I merely came here to drink my sorrows away, so it wasn't something I was expecting.
Ah, you mean I could have kept my mouth shut while you wallowed? I'll keep that in mind for next time.
[And if Sesa is just playing with his drink, Luca might reach over to try and steal it. He's not the biggest fan but... the vouivre probably doesn't need more.]
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Nah Luca has a rock bf he's fine-]
Starcrossed? Hardly.
[He turns his head a little, so his cheek is resting on the bar instead of his forehead.]
I...despise him. He is everything I stand against. He wants me to act in ways I know that I would regret...
[...]
But yet- [Flopping dramatically to one side] -I cannot cast him from my mind. I cannot help but to fall for him every time he opens his mouth, like a...a....seductive temptress.
[What does this even mean]
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Yeah, his love life is great. And he is definitely not at all bothered by the familiarity of the situation that Sesa describes.
His tone isn't exactly softer when he speaks again, but he does seem distinctly less dismissive.]
Some men are infuriatingly charming, even when you know better.
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Sesa squints, turning his head even further so he can try to look at Luca without lifting his torso off the bar.]
You speak as if you have experience.
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[Luca isn't a very big drinker. Nevertheless, he does find a very particular bottle of wine from the bar and pours it for himself. He doesn't drink it yet, just swirls the liquid in a clear glass.]
There was a man I met in my travels. Though he was not involved, his organization was involved in a tragedy that befell my family. Though we did not know it when we first met... [He shrugs.] Sometime later, the truth of both of our identities came out. Yet despite knowing what monstrosity he and his cohort were capable of, I continued to gravitate toward him. And he continued to encourage it.
[Finally, he takes a long pull from his glass. After he swallows, he lets out a long suffering sigh.]
Men, right?
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[Sesa huffs, in complete agreement on that front.
He will also sit up and down another one of those shots, against his better judgement. He is going to be the most hung over of his LIFE come tomorrow morning.]
That does sound much like what I am dealing with...I just.
[He runs a hand over his face, pressing his fingers into the bridge of his nose.]
I don't know what I'm doing. I just know I am incapable of stopping as I am.
[He gave him a RING, Luca.]
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If you are incapable of stopping, then do you believe he is capable of changing?
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I...don't know. I do not truly believe him to be a wholly cruel person, it is just that...the things he has done are cruel, and reprehensible. I should not be willing to accept much less forgive such things, especially when they go so starkly against my own worldview, but...
[Sesa groans, slumping forward on his barstool again.]
Perhaps there is just something wrong with me.
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[Sorry, Sesa.]
If there is a part of you that craves the violence he brings, it probably speaks to your character as well. [A shrug.] Or, perhaps you are a hopeless optimist, hoping that you can redeem someone that far gone.
Either way, I don't envy you.
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[No, it's more like...]
I seek revenge. [ah] Revenge...for my brother's death. And- [For some reason, he can't bring himself to say Elliot's name outright, even though everyone with eyeballs would know who he's talking about.] -the object of my desire...and my deepest affections, I believe, holds the key to obtaining it. He wants to help me.
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So. You would bed the devil in the hopes of attaining your more selfish and destructive desires. [He takes another sip of his wine.] In that case, yes, there is something wrong with you. But it is not so uncommon.
Craving vengeance is — forgive the phrasing, all things considered — very human.
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[He stares down into the glass of half-drunk liquor in front of him.]
I should be indifferent. My goals should be all that matter to me. Yet...seeing his smile means just as much, if not more.
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Quite the storybook romance you've pulled yourself into. Now all you need to do is convince your lover the error of his ways and skip off into the sunset.
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This is a serious issue I am having, you know.
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[Sorry, Sesa.]
There is no happy ending here. There is no perfect solution. This is what happens when you seek to bloody your hands in the search for revenge. Especially when you get tied up with another person. I would know. [He shakes his head.] But even if there were an elegant solution to be found, it wouldn't be located at the bottom of a shot glass.
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[He sighs heavily, swirling the contents of the last glass silently.]
But I did think it would help me feel less...insane.
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[He finishes his glass off.]
If you truly want my judgement in this matter, I'll give you this. Good people do bad things. Bad people do good things. Your attractions and your quest might indicate a certain inclination, but there is more to you than that. Certainly more than a surly bartender with his own issues would be able to diagnose.
The point is, don't listen to me.
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Well...good advice or no, I do appreciate you being willing to lend a listening ear. I merely came here to drink my sorrows away, so it wasn't something I was expecting.
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[And if Sesa is just playing with his drink, Luca might reach over to try and steal it. He's not the biggest fan but... the vouivre probably doesn't need more.]
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...but, Sesa will let him take it actually. He really does not need more he's drank SO much.]
I mean...you could have. But I appreciate it that you didn't...
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Maybe you are a good man.
[Luca downs the shot and immediately resists the urge to gag.]
With terrible taste.
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[He motions vaguely to wherever the Spirit has gotten off to.]
I make a few requests here and there, but He is the one that does the most of it.
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[Sesa smirks, clearly having a hard time sitting up straight now so he's just kinda flopped in his seat, don't mind him.]
Doesn't that save you from having to do a lot of extra work yourself?
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The busy work keeps my mind off of things.
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